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[15 Dec 2008|03:26pm] |
so..i'm at work feeling every single germ around everyone is crazy sick. like nasty please get away from me sick. I hate this feeling which is why i hate hospitals. anyway, i was just reading, what else, CNN and apparantly little miss kennedy wants the senate seat, vacated by hillary. so here we go...I LOVE LOVE LOVE JFK. Him and Bill Clinton are my top two faves, however...i can't help but feel like this whole caroline as senator thing is plain retarded. Does she think it's where the cool people are so she wants it? and because she has the "name" its just one more thing she can just go ahead and do all of a sudden? i'm sorry but no. AND I cant help but feel insulted ONCE AGAIN that Hillary might possibly be replaced by someone who is not by any means on her level. It's nice that her dad was JFK, its cute that her uncle held the same position she's seeking, and its even cool that ted kennedy is still the most respected politician in congress....but Caroline, please. No really, please lets get serious now.
thats all.
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I did it!!! I woke up at 5am to get to my polling place at 6am and there was already a line! I loved it!! every second. The volunteers had no idea what they were doing, which i thought was funny but they managed.
When it came time to cast my vote i looked at the ballot and with the biggest smile and the best feeling in my heart...as if my heart was cosumed with icebreakers haha...i filled the bubble next to my candidate! What a feeling!! what a rush!! to think that it may be possible that I voted for the first black president of the United States of America! I voted for the change that for so long has been blocked by obstacles almost impoosible to overcome. I remember reading about the civil rights movement, reading about Martin Luther King Jr., the passion and dreams that many had in those days but never really thought it would actually happen. I think back to the many years of discrimination, racism, ignorance, and the embarrassment i felt as an American that my country could be so inhuman.
but today, i coudnt believe that it would be in my lifetime, my generation, my vote, that could see the possibility of finally breaking that tape at the end of the longest marathon in history. even before we know who becomes president, We WON! we won, by creating a movement all on its own, a movement for change, unity, progress! the passion that has ignited in so many people is incredible! Just imagine what MLK would be thinking at this moment! all those minorities that have struggled...this is for them!!!
My mom has been living proof of the struggles of a minortiy, immigrant, poor single mother, yet succesfull in her own right. She felt it all, she lived it all and today as we both waited in line it was just amazing. Two generations of different experiences but shared ideals and beliefs. She was the fighter, community activist, voice of protest against injustice, advocate for children's rights, women's rights, people's rights. All of that runs in my blood and it is because of her that I am passionate for whati believe and why i'm a fighter never giving up.
In this day, the fight is about a just living for the middle-class, opportunities for education, healthcare, a healthy environment, equality!
Who will think about me? fight for me? work for me? represent me?...not mccain, definetely not palin!
i refuse, to go back to the 8yrs of misery we've just had, i refuse to allow a woman not fit to represent me, push womens progress back years and years. I refuse to let this opportunity go away. it's time for change! I made my vote..Obama '08!!!
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| America the beautiful? |
[11 Oct 2008|12:24pm] |
i'm sure it has always been this way , but I had hope that as Americans we moved on and progressed into a more civil society. I was proven wrong this week, when it was displayed all over how incredibly hateful, spiteful, and racist this country is. And all for what? to gain politically.
The images of all these white folk, and yes i say white folk because thats all i have seen.....their hatred, racism, and plain disrespect for others is something i had only read about in history books. I cannot believe that a campaign is so blind and so selfish, that they incite this kind of behavior. Mccain finally stepped up and acted like a man, and tried calming down some people. but its a little too late.
I don't even want to imagine how it will be the next time when perhaps a latino runs for presidency, or any other minortiy for that matter.
it is embarrasing to say that i love my country, when all you see at these events is pure hatred, and ignorance. I thought we were better than that. I prided myself in being from a country that is so diverse, and filled with different views, and culture.
it is sad that I myself am now afraid to walk through those places, for fear of being taunted, mistreated, discriminated, psychologically lynched.
and while i'm watching all of this unfold, i get some idiot sending me messages to my facebook inbox with the most ignorant arguments. wat makes things worse is that he happens to be the husband of one of my closest friends. so how do i deal with that?
while he doesn't directly spew the racial tones that i have seen on tv...he does present the most ridiculous arguments.
i know all the rumors that have been swirling obama, that he is a muslim, he wasn't really born here, he is a terrorist, blah blah blah.
i mean seriously, next thing you know the man sneezes and people start belieiving his fucking snot is some sort of terrorist code.
have we become so stupid to believe all this shit???
what gets me more angry is that this person has the nerve to insult me and treat me like shit as he makes his arguments.
i dont mind discussion, i dont mind arguing with people about issues, when they come with INTELLIGENCE and SUBSTANTIVE ideas.
thats fine. i'll argue till i turn blue. but to waste my time on someone who is so completely stuck in the white trash mentality??
i dont mean to make myself above anyone, but i do have dignity, and i honor and respect myself enough to stand up and not take this shit.
funny thing is, he hasn't bothered to call me out in person. he just hides behind the screen and continues to argue through facebook messages. come on! be a man, have some balls, and step up to me. I may be small but trust me my will and passion are far greater than anyone can imagine.i can stand toe to toe with the best of them. I could care less if you are a 6 foot military, big tough guy...i can break you down faster than your fucking sgt.
ugh!!
till the next one.
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[05 Oct 2008|11:51pm] |
so it took me a while but i finally have some free time....
disclaimer: i have strong views, strong opinions, some may not like it, many will disagree, but they are mine.
anyone can challenge them. I welcome the challenge, i'm strong i can handle it.
the first of the many political entries i will write...
we are in trouble if someone has the lowest of expectations, the bar is set so low it is in the negatives...and all they do is skip around the question, answer their own prepped questions, wink, talk folksy, and smile at the camera AND IT IS CONSIDERED A WIN.
seriously, this is the 2nd most powerful position in the country, possibly the world..and people are satisfied that the candidate didnt fall flat on her face?!! Any college student that crammed and knows the art of bullshitting couldve gotten up on that podium and performed the way palin did. In undergrad when i had my polisci tests which were all in essay form...if i wrote 5 pages worth of crap that i had crammed the night before but did not address the question asked, guess what my score was....a big fat 0!! and trust me i still have those blue books with me. so how is it that we expect more from a college student but not from a candidate for the Vice Presidency and apparantly people are ok with that???
This woman if elected, will have to deal with issues, such as russia, china, afghanistan, pakistan, north korea, and don't forget the nasty monster down south, chavez. She'll have to deal with nuclear countries, countries that hate us, countries that love to threaten us at any second for any reason. I'm sorry but someone that relies on winks and smiles to win over a crowd while spewing general ideas fed to her by advisors of the FAILING ADMINISTRATION, does not give me confidence at all.
I know the republican campaign's arguments for her...she has executive experience, she's a maverick blah blah blah. But I recall the last FIU home game and I believe there were far more people at that game than the place she was the executive of. doesn't impress me.
by the way, she said Mccain knows how to win a war...correct me if i'm wrong but the war he was in - Vietnam - um we lost!
the "say it aint so joe", the folksy accent, the wrinkling of the nose...if she does that one more time thinkking it connects with me in some way, I WILL THROW MY TV OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW! all that does is make her look like a fucking hillbilly from a trailor park. if that is what people want in the number 2 position and quite possibly as president of the United States, then i have severely over-estimated the intelligence of the American people. I now truly understand why we get laughed at around the world. If we were a show we'd get the emmy for best comedy.
I'm not part of the high-class, i make well below the average income, i dont know of anyone in my family, group of friends, aquantances etc. that make over 250K a year. I'm worried about supporting myself when I am out of my house. I'm worried about my mom being able to make it when i'm gone. I'm worried about my job future. I'm worried about not having enough health insurance to take care of my basic needs..and no 5,000 dollars that the mccain campaign says it iwill give back to people thus making his plan better...no that doesn't even cover half of my basic medical expenses a year. I worry about my mom not being able to retire comfortably because her 401k is worth nothing. I worry about the future of education, infrastructure, health care, medicare, social security, LIFE. I'm voting for the one who pays attention to those needs, to my needs. I'm voting for the person who gets rid of the tax breaks to all those greedy, dirty, corrupt corporations that sucked us into the worst financial situation we've had since the depression. I'm voting for my future.
i hope americans truly sit down and think about their lives and future. I hope they get serious and think about this election in the most serious way ever. this isn't a cool game, this isn't highschool SGA elections. this is the biggest election in history, which will affect our lives more than ever before. so before you get won over by a wink and a wrinkle of the nose, and a You betcha'. Before you give in to the rumors, dirt slinging, lies, and ignorance...do research, get the facts and make a decision that is truly the best for this country and yourselves.
thats enough for the night.
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| Ignorance is the downfall of Humanity |
[30 Sep 2008|03:02pm] |
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wow. I cannot believe the argument I just got into during lunch. Now, I can debate with someone all day long about politics...when it is a serious argument/opinion. but to argue with racism and bullshit and on top of that tell me I dont understand the constitution?!?!?!
First: If you're going to be racist in my presence get ready for war.
Second: While there are many many many people who know about politics without having a degree, I find it a complete insult when someone tells me I dont understand the constitution or anything political when a) politics is my life b) I have a degree in politics c) masters in criminal justice d) politics and government is in my blood. SERIOUSLY!
Third: If you're going to have an opinion about any candidate, at least have the decency for your own self respect, to get the facts and not just use racist, ignorant, lies as your argument for or against a candidate.
The people at La Carreta must now be truly afraid of me. great.
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| Call it a comeback |
[29 Sep 2008|11:14am] |
Well, well , well look who is posting today! lol. It has been exactly 129 weeks since i've posted an entry, according to livejournal.
I actually had forgotten about this thing until recently. I randomly check in every now and then but never really write anything.
So what has been going on?? I am midway through my Masters in Criminal Justice, and everyday I wish it would go by quickly. I initially really wanted to come back to school...that quickly fizzled as soon as I realized the work involved. I'll just keep trucking on until I finally have the Black cap ang gown!!
I still work at FIU as a grants specialist, but that soon may change if everything goes right. I love criminal justice and I believe I am truly meant to be in the CJ system, which is why I am going all in and starting a law enforcement career. Hopefully one day I'll go federal and finish off my career in my Ultimate dream job somewhere in the FBI. It's a little scary, considering the dangers of law enforcement, especially in Florida where we've had a rash of officer injuries/deaths. But, I'm taking a good sports mantra with me..."if you play scared, you'll get hurt". As long as i'm trained well, everything will be fine.
Miguel and I have been together for 2 1/2 years and its been great. Abosolutely no drama, problems, etc. It's fun when you're drama free :o)
He is now a CPA (yup I get the cool career, he gets the nerdy one) and got promoted to senior assurance at BDO which is great. He'll be Partner in no time!! lol, ok maybe in 10 years BUT time flies!
My Sparky has entered into the Senior part of his life :o( he doesn't move as much as before and he has trouble jumping on the couch. He sleeps ALL the time and he's been getting more devilish than normal. They say it's because he's old, he sorta has episodes where he'll go back to when he was a puppy and destroy things. My turtle on the other hand is HUGE. and just the other day she snapped at me and made some sort of growl. I've never heard her do that before. I'm equating her behavior to teenage years for humans. lol she's getting too much attitude for her own good.
I guess thats all as far as my personal life goes. Of course there are tons of significant events going on of which I have MANY OPINIONS on, but I must go back to work. i may just come back later and discuss such events :o)
tis all folks
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it has been like a trillion years since i've updated. here it goes:
these past few months have been quite interesting. first i had to go through that painful, yet neccessary event in my life. Broken hearts are not nice or pretty BUT it was neccessary and i think i was too scared to realize that i truly needed to be done with it. i guess i got used to the routine of having someone and just that person by my side. even if it wasnt all that great. I look back and do not regret anything but realize that the person that i am now has definetely grown up from the person i was back then. and yes i know EVERYONE and their mothers has told me like everyday...I TOLD YOU! SHOULDVE DONE IT A LOOONG TIME AGO. i know but sometimes i can be stubborn and not see the truth.
IT'S ALL OVER WITH and its just another chapter in my life.
on with better news...
i have a job at FIU! i work in the MARC building with the Sponsored Research dept. i love it! its full time with benefits and i get school paid (some of it)!!! the best thing of working on campus is that i can see my girls and friends whenever i want!!! its great!!i wasnt kidding when i said fiu was my second home!
i've reunited with my old highschool/freshman year of college buddies! its funny how things happen the way they do. we got back together right when i was at a low point. and eventhough we had been seperated for two years...they were right there with me as if we had never grown apart. it was because of them that i was able to get up and get myself back on track. and before i get yelled at...CHRISTINE was there with me at every step too. LOVE YA!!
one more thing that came out of my "reunion" was that i met new friends. and then something happened. someone came into my life and deep down inside i knew there was a reason for it. so it started as just friends of friends. then it was hanging out a little more..then as i was an emotional wreck, this someone stayed around and we got to know eachother...and then it happened. i had a dream...we all know that i see dreams as symbols. In that dream i was happy. the happiest person ever, laughing and smiling like never before and it just so happened i was with this one person. It was the best feeling in the world. i woke up with the biggest smile, and then i went "uh oh" i went online and told christine and she said something that stuck in my head. ever since then, i haven't cried, been sad, upset, angry, humiliated, or abandoned. in fact i done remember having been this happy! my mom has noticed and she is overjoyed at my new self because she has never seen me act like this since i was like 5. she is suuuuuper happy. and i'm suuuuper happy. and its all great!!! so yes things happen for a reason and my "reason" is awesome!!!!
in the end i'm happy with the way things turned out. my heart is smiling once again and all the cracks and bruises are finally going away! yay!
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[04 Mar 2006|07:23pm] |
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!!!!!!!!!HAPPY FOUNDER'S DAY !!!!!!!!!!
I hope that everyone gets a chance to think about our founders and how Phi Mu has been able to hold strong throughout all these years.
154 yrs of Love Honor Truth!!!!
I love you all!!!!!!
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| freaky friday |
[17 Feb 2006|07:33pm] |
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it feels like its friday the 13th
- Find out some serious news.
- As i'm in the middle of hearing that news, i get more bad news
- Worry, anger, frustration...running around in my head at one time
- i finally calm down throughout the day and decide to make fried chicken (random i know)
- i discover that practice is a must if i wanna make good fried chicken
- i try to fan all the smoke in my living room out onto the balcony
- then i lose my appetite for chicken, so i have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich instead
- now, i'm sitting at home on a friday night wishing things were much brighter
Lets hope saturday is much better than this.
i want some cheesecake..too bad i already cheated and had PB&J
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[16 Feb 2006|03:35pm] |
oh by the way I HAVE A JOB!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH BENEFITS, AND SCHOOL PAID FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I START ON TUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ever feel like no matter how hard you've worked out you still dont feel like you've done much or had any progress? maybe i'm just having a bad workout day.
or maybe it was the kitkats jaime gave me for valentines day and my guilt for eating them.
i'm gonna have lunch and go back to working out after.
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[12 Feb 2006|11:21pm] |
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so, i'm all excited because the winter olympics are here and all i look forward too is figure skating and watching my all time favorite skater in the world try to get the gold for the last time. then today she takes herself out because of an injury. guess what people....i nearly cried. i rooted for her ever since she first came out on the ice 10 yrs ago! i watched that little bitch tara lipinski take the gold right out of michelle's reach. then the other stupid unknown skater take it way from her again 4 yrs later.
needless to say i'm very very sad.
i dont think i'm gonna watch the figure skating competition. i'll be too bitter and wish those girls fall on their asses.
*sniff, tear* :o(
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Ok so apparantly there is an UNBELIEVABLE amount of TENSION/DRAMA/BAD VIBES.......sooo everybody please take a deep breath and join me in a nice good SCREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OK. well i thank you all for participating. now can we please just live in peace?!
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so its a bad day today. december 14th makes me wanna cry.
and on top of it being a bad day anyway, my mom is fed up with sparky. since we got him we've spent thousands of dollars in medical bills. and well this seems to be the last straw. we have had to practically take money out of our savings (which was supposed to be the downpayment for our apt.) in order to take care of him. since we got him he's had..and still does have epilepsy, had an ulcer in his eye, 27 kidney stones, prostate problems, skin infection, tooth decay, ear infections, now he has hot spot which is a big nasty skin sore on his face, on top of a another ear infection in BOTH ears.
and whats worse is this stupid dog doesnt let us give him his medicine. he growls and bites and frankly i'm not up for a another bite, because if its worse than the first one i got from him i will DIE!!!
so whatever. thats my rant.
and by the way its gina!!!!
haha i dont even watch that shit and thats my bet!
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[09 Dec 2005|02:02am] |
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what a night. i dont think anyone has ever seen me cry so much like tonight. It was by far one of the most emotional nights in my life. I swear i thought i'd be fine until like half way through...but 3 words into my speech and my tears burst. It was so hard to see my lil one crying and then everyone else. but it will be a memorable moment. I meant every word..it all came from my heart. so that was my goodbye to my beloved phi mu. what a moment.
I love you all...and its great to be a PHI MU!!
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[01 Dec 2005|10:56am] |
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its DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finished decorating my house and tree lastnight and it is BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! I am officially in the christmas spirit. i have no money and probably wont get much this year BUT it doesnt matter I LOOOOOOVE christmas.
and then its the new year and i can start on a new clean slate! hopefully this time i can be a little happier. we shall see.
love you all.
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| Happy Thanksgiving |
[24 Nov 2005|05:07pm] |
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Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! I've been quite busy making the dinner but i know it will come out super yummy!
i just want to say that I Love everyone whos has come into my life..my sisters, my friends, and of course my family. As you all look around your table tonight please take a minute to appreciate each and every one of those around you.
I would also like to ask of you all to keep Priscilla(Alpha Mu)in your prayers... the moments I had with her I appreciated them all, and now I thank God that she is still with us.
Have a great evening everyone!
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